Happy go lucky day~

Ah.. Today is so relaxing... Woke up only ard noon and did some housework.. Attended my friend's 21st birthday party, and it was fun and awesome meeting friends I had not met for a long time this year becos of the national exams.. The moon brightly lit the chalet looking so gorgeous today. Hope that my results will be as fulfilling as the moon be it my prelims or 'O' levels! And of course, hope everyone's wishes may come true! 

A day of fun and sadness...

The day started off with me getting all anxious and nervous because I'm late for my practical exam!! Not because I woke up late but because the bus only arrived at 9:30, when I'm supposed to reach at 9:30!! Luckily when I arrived they haven't proceed to the lab. The practical was rather fine except for physics experiment where my experiment was kinda sloppy because I hate balancing and the question asked us to balance Metre rule and that got me on my nerves! Everyone was doing so quickly that most of is finished in 1hr for both physics and chemistry experiment, leaving with a good 30mins. Went back home for lunch then went back sch again for Emaths mass checking..argh, so shag... Got a C5 and how am I suppose to get an A1 for O levels?? If my emaths only got a C 5 I suppose my Amaths is worse.. Not really looking forward to Monday as we will be checking amaths paper te first thing in the morning... Haix.. Anyway, played this blowing bubble stuff with mom, got it in a party bag my cousin gave me. I didn't have a childhood playing this, always looking at others playing only. My mom childhood had this and she taught me how to blow it! It's fun and cool! Here's a picture of it! 

Pimple outbreak! Argh!

Today's last written paper was bad! Couldn't score it! Physics was damn hard  and chemistry was only manageable! Had physics practical crash course after it, preparing for tmr's practical exam! Ended around 9.45am and I got a chance to have Mac breakfast! Yahoo! Ate egg mcmuffin meal and it was scrumptious! Cooked dinner today again haha! I think I developed a hobby in cooking! Went swimming with my family and it was so cold! I had goosebumps! Mom bought a book "smart teacher stupid teacher" focussing on study tips on how to score for exam.. Argh so stressed... Slept late during the holidays and during exam period.. Now my pimples are coming up! Oh no! But anyway, apple's ios 7.0 is released today! It's so pretty omg! I can't even...! I'm just in love with it! Anyway, hope everything goes well for tmr's practical and tmr's gonna be a long day, till 5pm as there will be mass going through of emaths paper tmr!! OMG hope I pass!!!!! >< 

Wonderful day!

Today was a pleasant day! Except for morning, where I was so tired that I overslept and was late for sch. YOLO! Walking into the exam hall when other students are already seated and waiting for the exam papers to come down the rows! XD Was damn nervous! Lamest thing on earth is when your co-form asks u are you late when you are in the midst of an exam. I was intending not to answer her but well, I answered to a dumb question -.- even if I said I was not she will argue out her way so what's the point in asking? Well anyway, lets forget these bad memories! Physics and history went pretty well except that time management for history was rather poor, didnt manage to complete it! Was wondering why my form teacher was looking at my paper when he walked past, then I realized I only left with 2mins and I had a 8 mark source based left! Had a chance to cook dinner for my family today as mom couldn't make it home in time. Whipped up a few dishes today, sweet potato with chilli, steamed lady fingers, sesame asparagus and miso soup. Proud of my asparagus as its so nice!! Miso soup can be improved though! Alright, last paper tmr, paper 1 science. Really hope I can score in mcq achieving a B for science hopefully and A! Hahaha! 

Expected..

Well of course, amaths didn't went well today! Was anticipating an easy paper as paper 1 was tough but it turned out paper 2 was equally tough. For the first question I was already dumbfounded and subsequently, I can't do them. My confidence level was way deep down.. Totally demoralized n actually had the thought of giving up.. But i told myself to just try and give my best. I hope even If i can't get a pass I can get at least a D and not a F grade. Totally regretted having a power nap this afternoon, it turned out to be a 1.5hr nap! In the end I had to rush through physics and history revision!! Oh gosh, I hope I maintain my standard for physics and pass it.. For history? I just hope I can do well as my Southeast Asia history was a goner.. It was a pretty slack day and I hope I can really start my engine and just run through 1 more month! 

This quote inspired me and made me believe in pursuing my dream. Hope u can pursue yours too! Always remember, persevere on! 

Pray for good luck!

it's the prelim 3 period! I really hope I can pass every subject! Especially for additional mathematics! Our school's standard is really too much, demoralizing students everytime! The paper 1 which is over was horrendous, tmr would be paper 2.. I hope I can score and pass finally for amaths. I really want to make my tutor proud, because its really disappointing for him teaching me for 2 years and this is the kinda result I give him back. I really need to do my best and not let him down.. Although I have these thoughts, my actions always fails to match my thoughts. I've been pondering this for years and there's no change. I can make rational decisions and thoughts but I fail to execute them. Why? -sigh- -pray- please let me pass god, let me have the confidence to continue on.. I promise I will do my best and not give up easily like I always do. Positive thinking: If I believe I can do it, I can do it! 

This Made my day!

Couldn't believe how lucky I was yesterday! Was at a celebration and saw Edwin Goh! He looks more handsome in real life compared on screen! Pardon him being so pedo and evil looking in this picture! Most importantly, can't believe I asked him for a picture! I was struggling internally whether should I ask for a picture oh my.. But he was rather awkward when I approached him! This photo of the candle was taken during the celebration, I made a wish.. Of course not to take a picture with him yeah! Haha! But for my future... Anyway, hope it come true! Tomorrow will be the start of school and exams will resume! And guess what? It's geography paper tomorrow, my worst subject.. Argh! I'm not even prepared! Just hope for a pass! Don't wanna fail as badly during prelim2! Chemistry and geography tomorrow! Okay, shall go and work on them right now! Wish me luck!!! 

Pretty good day~

One of the most pleasing day ever~ nv felt as refreshed as before! I could pay attention to class without feeling sleepy! Had emaths test after sch and asked amaths teacher some question.. Then proceeded to the library to study with my friend. I think I can only study with a partner, because this will discipline me to study n not fool around wasting time. It also speeds up my studying time making it a quality study time. The results are out today, n my cca got certificate of accomplishment. Quite a number of string members were crying as they felt they could do better n achieve a distinction award. Well, I find that the results are rather predicted.. As long as everyone Did their best, no regrets, what's done is undone, lets just move forward with our life. Went tuition just now and did some revision for thurs test... This week is really cluttered with tests! There's even a geography test tmr! Anyway, today is a rather productive day! :D

Motivation decreasing

Prelims are coming, on thurs. Almost everyday my time is dedicated to studies. But this weekend is dedicated to homework. The amount given is horrendous. It's fun studying with friends, I can ask questions n get a reply instantly. But the motivation to studying is decreasing n this is damn bad. There's a drama serial I came across with n it hit me, I'm addicted again. Finally get away with it n now I'm into the addiction again. It's hard to get myself focus on studies, but I think I can do it if I try my best. My target for this prelim is no fails. Pray hard! And for humanities I hope I can get my As from there, languages I hope for a B or an A!

Self discipline

I really need self discipline! Weekends are meant for studying but I just could not force myself to sit down and study! I really need to practice self discipline! Prelims is coming n no preparation done! 100+ more days to national exams n here I am still idling away! Oh gosh. My life is seriously in a mess! How can I go to my dream course in this state? Stop dreaming seriously. I need to really get to serious work. No more fooling around, study dates with friends are effective. But can only be done during weekdays. When it's weekends, studying is totally impossible. When theres a test on Monday, I can wait till 1 hr before Monday then I start to study and panic. This kinda life really needs a change. I really need to put my words into action. Say no to procrastination!!

Thoughts for flag day

Flag day, is one of the community involvement program that students are supposed to do, giving us a chance to give back the society what they have given to us, provided us.
As I mention, I'm quite a introvert, don't really like to talk to strangers, I can only get comfortable to friends I know for quite a long time and of course my family. Before my secondary sch years, I'm known as a shy, quiet girl whom doesn't interact much. But during my secondary sch years, I have to really thank my best friend, I guess it's her that really changed me into being more open and helping me see what I really can do. She's a person that can voice her thoughts easily to anyone at anywhere. To be honest, although I have changed, but I can't voice my thoughts to teachers or people of higher status.. Maybe I will try on that sometime? Okay, back to topic, haha! I understand the feeling of being rejected by people, many different attitudes we can see from people during flag day. Ok, not to be so negative, there's also positive side, some people, after donating, smiles radiantly, as they did a good deed.. Some set a good example to their little kids by donating money. Some people approach you even when u didn't approach them, showing that they were very keen on donating.. Ytd flag day was a really unbelievable experience, shaping my courage, and letting me understand the underlying process of how we see other students feel when they are doing flag day. It's not an easy job, but I did it! 😊

Crazy day!

Ytd was a crazy day! It was a freaking Saturday with the sun especially hot! So, I was supposed to report to sch by 9am for our O level chemistry practical examination. Well, our paper started t 9.30am and ended at 10.30am. Then, we had to be locked up till 12.30am. Although there's entertainment such as running man for us to watch given that our mobile phones were confiscated. Finally, 12.30 reach! We are allowed to take our mobile phones then leave for lunch, returning to sch by 1.30pm.. It was quite a chaos then.. We left to have our lunch at pastamania, then we were late for 30mins! Hahaha! Then our teachers were dialing our phones, asking our whereabouts. Lucky me, didn't write my personal phone number for the sch to know, so they dialed my home instead! Lucky again, my parents were out! Hahaha! Ok, back to the topic, we collected the cans for Red Cross flag day then proceeded.. The scorching sun was above us, making us look like red lobsters.. For a introvert like me, it took me some time to muster up my courage to approach people to donate money. I am rather satisfied with myself that I have changed so much during the years.. We ended flag day around 6-7pm... And we were entirely drained, both physically and mentally.. But the day did not end just like this, my parents brought me out for dinner then went to granny house.. Well, my eyes were all red as though I cried but, dont get it wrong! It's because my eyes were trying so hard not to close so they turned red due to the excessive use.. Also partly due to wearing my contact lens so long. And that's the crazy day!

Pe lesson!

Played volleyball today! It's fun but look at the picture below.. It always make my arm have all these bruises which are apparently not painful at all to pop out.. argh.. So ugly!

2013

This is my first post for 2013 and -sigh- things aren't going well.. Many things happen. Getting back of Mother Tongue O level result was not pleasing.. Amaths results are not good too, was discouraged from continue taking.. Haix.. Apart from all these stress.. Now, currently i am facing loneliness. Only child only feels lonely when there's no friends to chat with.. Everyday I'm living as though I'm gonna cry any moment. From the stress of me wanting to do well, but it's tough, from the tiredness of studying till late night everyday, from friends somehow keeping a distance from me.. -sigh- wonder how am I gonna survive this year which is my important year. Taking of O levels.. -shudder- ARGH..