Feeling so much better, emotionally and psychologically..

Well, writing my feelings out really made me feel so relieved and BOOMZ haha! Yeah, i admit I couldn't stop myself from tearing last night because of that huge disappointment piled up in me. I just need to let it all out and let it go~ And i believe most of them are gone after all this emotional sh*t I've gone through. And so, went back to school today for Global Citizenship pre trip consultation and it went well woohoo! But I'm kinda a little unhappy about Leslie. Like URGH, "I've many things to do", "can i have some volunteers?" and "i need you guys to stay". I am pretty sure most of us are enough with his last minute attitude and of course SURPRISES. Can't believe what kind of surprises we might get when we are in Kazakhstan man. Went for a ride in my new bike. It's pretty "high-end" i suppose, due to the difficulty in controlling it well. But, I'm pretty happy that my grandma decided to have a walk in the park with us, exercising, instead of staying home watching her television shows. :) Came back and caught the new drama just in time :) N of course, my dad finally brought down my winter clothings so that i can pack them in my luggage. Speaking of my dad, I'm pretty pleased that he attained the service recognition award of 25 years! So proud of him hahaha! But well, it seems that my family doesn't express our emotions well! I guess this explains my strong introvertness XD Sometimes I really can't stand myself acting all tough in front of others but I also hate to show the weak side of me to others.. Weird or weird? This really explains why I am so concerned about my image and reputation in front of strangers and friends! Tried working this out but nah, it's just really hard to change myself. Probably I will have to live with it for my whole life? sigh.. I need more close friends that I can trust and have a really deep heart to heart talk. N the person which I only talk about my deep secrets and thoughts is my mom hahaha XD thats because I truly believe she won't spill the beans and betray me. Strong sense of security ah?