Results day...

I must say I am grateful that someone created blogger because this is the place where I can pour out my sorrows haha! ALright, so today is results day and its also a day where the fruits of my labour of this first semester of my freshmen year in Polytechnic can be seen. I must say I didn't really have much confidence to check the results online for I have a bad feeling about it. Everyone was up early to check the results and me? Nah, I even overslept when I was supposed to meet my friends at 1pm. So I only checked my results on the bus. Well, when I saw the results i was like: "yeah, just as what i thought, but I couldn't believe it was that bad". For all the modules i took,I only got an A?! And ironically, the only module that I got A was public speaking, which is the one i had least confidence(thanks to myself being an introvert). I've got 2 C+ and AGAIN, ironically, my course was Psychology, and I took Psychologyh because I feel that I will study hard and do better because of my interest, but, WOW, the module which I got a C+ was foundation psychology A. HAHA. Others were B, yeah, B not even a B+. Freaking shag, "you reap what you sow." yeah, as if. I think I had never even studied that hard in my life before and my GPA is so damn low, 3.03. How to even get into Uni with this GPA?! I expected myself to get a 3.5 or at least a 3.3 and above but wow life is a joke. I tried to push my sadness away and met my friends anyway. Well, being with them made me have a few good laughs for the afternoon, but once I am alone, those disappointment in myself is back. I couldn't even bring myself to tell my mom about this result. Although I know that she knew that I did put in effort but this whole thing about being so disappointed in myself just refrain me from telling her. I just could't face her i suppose. Because i can't even face myself! I thought maybe i should work out and "run" away from these thoughts (pun intended) but I'm really too tired... Checked my phone and saw my friend said that the average GPA for the cohort was 3.5. BOOM! Wow, thanks like literally. I'm already suffering from disappointment and thanks for the salt. Now my wound hurt much more. My judo friend which is older than me said, work harder next sen, get an A for everything and your GPA will be 3.5. Wow, easier said than done? Feeling so pathetic, I don't even know what to do now. Haha, i know this seems retarded but I have the intention of quitting school XD and just join the police force. C'mon, the pay is so good and they only require physical fitness! I would really rather train myself to be stronger and fitter than suffer from all these emotional stress. Anyway, cut the crap, I've made up my mind, I will just continue to work hard, and when I graduate, if my GPA is not good enough to get into a local uni, i suppose i will just get my diploma cert and apply for the police force. Not just because of the pay but there's a job in there which i am really keen which is being a specialist especially a psychology one. In short, it's something like a criminal psychologist. I think I can just slowly work my way up to being a specialist. I can even save up money for uni when I am being a junior officer. Wink wink! I think this idea really just makes my life a whole lot better! Because all those worrisome and stressful stuff abt low GPA is all gone. I think life still give you many other alternatives so we should be more flexible and JUST GET ON WITH LIFE!